Thursday, May 24, 2012

I Can't Make You Love Me

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me If you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

I'll close my eyes and then I won't see
The love you do not feel, when you're holding me
Morning will come, and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then, to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

And I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
And here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no, you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

Ain't no use in you trying
It's no good for me baby without love
All my tears, all these years, everything I believed in
Baby
Someone's gonna love me.


Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Just Take My Heart

 
It's late at night and neither one of us is sleeping
I can't imagine living my life after you're gone
Wondering why so many questions have no answers
I keep on searching for the reason why we went wrong
 
Where is our yesterday?
You and I could use it right now
But if this is goodbye
 
Just take my heart when you go
I don't have the need for it anymore
I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold
Just take my heart when you go 
 
Here we are about to take the final step now
I just can't fool myself, I know there's no turning back
Face to face it's been an endless conversation
But when the love is gone you're left with nothing but talk
 
I'd give my everything
If only I could turn you around
But if this is goodbye
 
Just take my heart when you go
I don't have the need for it anymore
I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold
Just take my heart when you go

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Monday, May 21, 2012

That moment when I held you in my arms again
Unexpected, momentary and fleeting
The scent of your hair, the warmth of your lips
It's all I could hope for,
And I could not ask for more.


Friday, May 18, 2012

Standing Right Next To Me


Love is like the wind,
Sometimes it blows your way,
And until now
It missed me somehow.

But when I turned around
I saw you standing there.
The sound of your voice -
I had no choice.

I used to have a wish
One day I'd feel like this.
Now I know love exists
Cause it's standing right next to me.

Beneath the moon tonight
I see it in your eyes -
No more false starts,
No more broken hearts.

I used to have a wish
One day I'd feel like this.
Now I know love exists
Cause it's standing right next to me.

Even in the dark,
Even when you're gone
I feel you in my heart.

I used to have a wish
One day I'd feel like this.
Now I know love exists
Cause it's standing right next to me

Standing right next to me.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Once In A Blue Moon



The room is empty
The lights are dim
And my heart wonders
If I'll ever see you again

My tears are hungry
For an open door
When your arms held me
I never felt
that way before

I'll be waiting
I'll be watching
Under a blue moon
The taste of heaven
only happens
Once in a blue moon

Do you remember
When the wind blew free?
And we fit together
So naturally

I'll be waiting
And I'll be watching
Under a blue moon
The taste of heaven
only happens
Once in a blue moon

If the wind closes the door
It will open another.

 I'll be waiting
I'll be watching
Under a blue moon
The taste of heaven
only happens
Once in a blue moon
Once in a blue moon.

Friday, May 11, 2012

The Handkerchief

It was an early December evening. The night wind breezed on Duncan's face as he drove his motorcycle along the quiet streets of Malate. It was unusually quiet that night as he noted the few vehicles that passed him by.

Traversing along the streets of San Marcelino, Duncan noticed the bright lights coming from the Paco Park.

"Must be a wedding." Duncan said to himself.

He slowed down and parked his motorcycle at the curb. Upon reaching the park's imposing steel gates, he was met by the groundskeeper who perfunctorily handed him a ticket.

"That'll be five pesos," said the groundskeep without looking up, busy scribbling notes on his logbook. Duncan handed him a shiny five peso coin and went inside the park's inner sanctum.

Once inside, it was as if Duncan walked into another world---ancient and tranquil. A lush garden surrounded by centuries-old acacia and banyan trees. The scent of bouganvilla with a hint of moss wafted in the air. Embracing the serenity that welcomed him, Duncan inhaled deeply.

Walking along the cobblestone pathway, it led him to an intricate fountain. The sound of its flowing waters drowned out the noise outside the park's massive walls. The fountain was lit by a multitude of colored lights that created the impression of a dancing rainbow. 

From a distance, Duncan could see a handful of men rigging what appeared to be a stage with an old stone chapel in the center serving as its backdrop. A sleek grand piano was placed in the middle.

Friday. Concert at the park, Duncan realized.

Paco Park is one of the favorite places in Manila the he loved to visit. Nestled in the heart of the city and enclosed like a fortress with its high stone walls, the park was a sanctuary where Duncan finds solitude and escape from the stresses of everyday life.

Duncan found himself walking up a flight of steps of the park's inner wall that led to a raised promenade encompassing the park. From a distance, he spotted a couple locked in a tight embrace under the cover of twilight, unmindful of their surroundings.

Walking further, Duncan came to a spot which afforded him a great view of the whole park and the stage at the center. Night had already settled and the park was illuminated that made it more beautiful than in daylight.

Duncan sat down and felt his pocket for a cigarette. Just as he was about to light it, he noticed the outline of a woman near him. Straining his eyes to see in the dark, he noticed that the woman was wearing a beautiful purple dress which does not seem the ordinary attire for the usual park goer. 

Minding his own business, Duncan lit his cigarette and inhaled a few puffs. After a while, he heard faint sniffles coming from the woman. She appeared to be crying. 

Duncan stood up and walked towards the woman.

"Here," Duncan offering his handkerchief to her, "Thought you might need this."

The woman lifted her head up and looked at Duncan.

"Thank you," as her dainty hand reached for the handkerchief. " I'm sorry, but I didn't mean to impose." she said.

"Oh it's all right." was all Duncan could say. He felt awkward approaching the woman as he might be thought of as a pervert or something. But something in her eyes told him that his gesture was welcomed.

Duncan found himself staring at the woman's face, his gaze transfixed on her as she wiped the tears from her eyes. It was the most beautiful face he saw. At that moment, he was  instantly drawn to her.

Silence came between them as Duncan struggled for words to say. Their eyes met and the woman managed to smile.

"There you go." Duncan finally spoke. "A smile looks way much better on you."

The woman suddenly blushed, stroked her hair to the side of her ear and said, "Now you're just teasing me."

They both laughed.

"What brings you here?" the woman asked. 

"I was on my way home when I saw the lights, thought I'd see what's going on." Duncan answered. "How about you?

"I'm here for the concert." she replied. 

Duncan then finally summoned up his courage and asked, "I hope you don't mind me asking, but is everything all right? You were crying a while ago."

The woman then looked away and Duncan felt stupid that he had to ask that question.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to intrude." he said apologetically.

The woman looked back at him and said, "No worries. I'm fine now."

Duncan felt the need to respond but was hesitant to do so, worried that he might say something wrong again. He instead looked over to the stage and saw people milling around while others were finding seats for the show.

"Hey." The woman called to him. "Are you staying for the concert?" she asked.

"Maybe. Its a Friday night and I have nothing else to do at home." he replied.

"You come here often?" asked the woman.

"Sometimes. Whenever I want to be alone and get away from it all, I come here" Duncan said.

"Maybe I should start coming here more often." the woman quipped.

Those words told a lot to him. Simple as they were, it held a lot of meaning. Not wanting to sound presumptuous, Duncan said to her, "You know, it's not all that bad. Whatever it is troubling you doesn't stay long but will soon pass."

"I really hope so. Thank you for that." said the woman.

Both fell silent for a while and after a moment, the woman stood up.

"Here's your handkerchief, I really appreciate the thought." the woman giving it back neatly folded up.

"Keep it," said Duncan. "It's yours. Something to remember me by."

The girl smiled and said she had to go. Duncan wanted her to stay for a bit more, but he couldn't seem to find the words to say it.

The woman started walking away when she turned back and said, "By the way, my name is Amanda."

"You can call me Duncan." he answered.

"It's nice to meet you, Duncan. Thank you for the company. I just wished I had known you at a better time." holding up the handkerchief in her hand.

"If you need someone to talk to, you'll find me here." said Duncan, with a hint of sadness in his voice.

As she walked away, the scent of her perfume lingered and Duncan breathed into it deeply.

Duncan wanted to follow her but couldn't seem to move his feet. His mind now filled with thoughts of that brief moment with her. The way her eyes looked at him and the smile on her face that brightened up his lonely heart. Suddenly, Duncan realized that he should not let that moment pass. He must get to know her more. Tell her that how such chance encounter touched him and made him feel that everything will be all right. Tell her in that moment alone with her, he somehow grew to care for her and that if given the chance to nurture it, he would not let anything make her cry again.

Duncan stood up and started to follow her. Watching Amanda from a distance, he wanted to call out her name. Barely did the words came out from his mouth when he saw a well dressed man with a bouquet of flowers come up to Amanda. Duncan stopped as he saw the man give the flowers to her and kissed her lips. The man then held her hand as he led her to a row of seats in front of the stage. 

Before settling down on their places, Duncan saw Amanda look at him. She raised her hand holding the handkerchief he gave her. She then placed that hand on her heart and struggled a faint smile.

Duncan somehow understood. The orchestra began to play its music as he walked away in that cold December evening.



Monday, May 7, 2012

Quiet Thoughts



Let me sing you a song dear,
Of rivers wide and silent streams
Of love that flows through
Wild blossoms and butterflies of May
Of a struggling spider in its silvery web,
Footprints on the receding ebb

Of your smile as sweet as honey,
Radiant and gleaming as it can ever be
Of a heart beating with hopeful dreams
In a silent night under the glow of moonbeams.
The music my dear would echo still,
In your heart remember, if you will.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Rainy Afternoon


I was out walking in downtown Manila late in the afternoon when it started to rain. What it seemed to be a light shower at the outset turned out to be a downpour -- as if heaven opened its floodgates on this part of the city. People darted to every nook and cranny they can squeeze themselves in for cover while others took out their trusty umbrellas. 

Taking refuge under an old building, I waited for the rain to stop. A cool misty breeze blew past and it soothed my tired and soaked body.. Listening to the pattering of raindrops and watching the gray-hued cityscape, I remembered  the first time I told you how I love the rain. You smiled at me with one of your sweetest smiles as if wanting to know more about this fascination of mine. Thoughts of us walking hand in hand in the rain then filled my thoughts. It made me smile.

I stepped off the curb and walked out to the street. The rain quickly enveloped me in her soft embrace...and I was happy.

Thank God for the rain. 

Thank God for you.